I really hope I'm prom queen I've never really won anything and that would be great to be in the year book with my name that everyone looks at. I know of a lot of people that voted for me plus someone said they saw some of the ballots and they saw that my name was on a bunch of them. Plus Hunter will probably win king and he's really nice but I just think it would be so cool. I'm really excited even if I don't win at least I'll be in the court in teh group picture.

I can't wait for prom tomorrow. I really wish it wouldn't rain but unfortunately it looks like it's going to so hopefully it can stop for an hour or so to take some pictures. Although I'm a little stressed out about the schedule for times etc I'm the kind of person that like sot have everything planned and have a time picked out for everything but the only appointment i have made now is my hair appointment at 11. I know we will be going out to eat and taking pictures but I don't know what time which makes me uneasy. I'm such a planning person it's quite pathetic especially since I know nothing ever goes by the plans and I'm still so obsessed with having a plan.

I really do believe that dogs can be theraputic. When I'm with my dog I feel so much better she just crawls right up next to you and just snuggles and knows when to leave you alone and when to snuggle. She's just so sweet. She has been living with my mom in Louisville but because of her new job in Indiana my little brother is staying here until she finds a house up there and the other day when I was coming home from school I opened the garage door and my dog Chloe ran out and I don't think I've been that excited in a long time. I'm somewhat of a dog nut I just love them so much they're so sweet. My friends alwya sjoke that I would be more interested in a missing dog than a missing child or that I'm never going to have kids and just adopt a bunch of dogs.

it's getting to be toward the end of the year and I get a little stressed out as it comes closer for big projects to be due even thoug it is my own fault because I have known about it all semester and procrastinated. I had 3 big projects due: my final paper for my English 102 class at OCC, my persuasive speech for my Public Speaking class at OCC, and my Psychology project. I turned in my rough draft for my final paper in English last thursday after staying up til 2 writing it (my own fault for procrastinating) but I'm nervous about the speech due Wednesday and my psychology fair project. I wouldn't be as worried about it if my computer worked as i have to have a powerpoint for my speech and no other computer i have access to has powerpoint plus I can't take it to be fixed because they are only accepting computers with viruses. But hopefully at the end of next week the rest of school will be for the most part stress free.

I think the last CD I bought was Dierks Bentley "Long Trip Alone" I bought it because I used to honestly be slightly obsessed with him. I love his music and I was even part of his fan club for a couple of years. It all started because I was going to one of his concerts in February and my mom knew how much I loved him so she signed me up in his fan club as a Christmas present because if you were in the fan club you could qualify for a meet and greet so she signed me up so I could get a meet and greet. Even though I didn't end up getting the meet and greet I really enjoyed being part of the fan club because I would participate on the fan board site and talk to other people all over the country even though we didn't always talk about specifically the artist it was still a lot of fun.

Macbeth project

I'm very excited to see what our grade was on our Macbeth project because this is kind of the first time I've been really confident about a creatiave project like this. I went to Alex's house on saturday after work and we worked it on nonstop until 11:00 PM and I think it turned out great. It may not be as ornate as some of the others but I think that added to its appeal, it wasn't too much it was clean cut so to speak it had geometric shapes and just looked cleaner I think. It was also easy to follow because we extensively explained each thing with the pictures. I think it was very creative using Cameron's baby pictures as Banquo's son's that were to become king. It was very decorative and bright but not overwhelming and I think it was just fun to look at. I'm very proud of it no matter what grade we get and I'm very excited to see our grade!

on our latest orchestra trip our teacher found out that all of her first violins except one would be leaving next year for different reasons and she was quite stunned because that's her entire section and the second violins aren't quite developed enough to be a strong first violin section. To be a good first violin section you need to be very talented and experienced and they aren't quite ready for that so I know Mrs. Yonts is very worried she doesn't quite know what she's going to do. I know I'm not going to play my violin in college but I don't want to totally give it up so I was thinking maybe there could be some way I could get the music that they would be playing in their concerts learn it while I'm in college and just come back and play with them during the concerts. I think it woul dbe fun for me and the group because it would be a familiar face to come back and play and I still wouldn't have to totally give up the violin. I'm worried though that I'll take this on and once I get to college and get invested in my classes etc. I'll forget or not have enough motivation and won't practice and not get the music in time and I think that would be a let down to the group if they knew about it but really I would have no obligations to them so I think I might talk to Mrs. Yonts about it and just say I woul dlike to do this but I don't want to fully committ to it because I'm not sure how my schedule will be and I'm not sure how studying, classes etc will play out and just see what she thinks about it.

purpose

I think everyone's purpose in life is to discover their talents and aptitudes and use them. I think everyone's purpose is ot strive for excellence and successfulness. I don't tihnk anyone is fulfilling their purpose or responsibilites as a human being to not continue their education, to be independent, and to support themself. Our brains are the most complex out of any of the animals, especially in the United States where we have the opportunity to learn I think it is wrong that people don't continue their education or that they don't care. Even though it is animal instinct to do as little as possible to get back I think since we have the opportunity and ability to learn we should as much as possible

latin phrases

I love latin phrases I think they are so deep and are good thoughts to keep in mind throughout life. Such as "alis volat propiis" which means "she flies with her own wings" I think this is a good thing to remember thorughout life because you need to remember that you can do anything you set your mind to and its important to believe in yourself and be independent. Also "Candor dat viribus alas" which means serenity gives wings to strength. I really like this quote and it's important to me because when my older brother was going through alcohol and drug rehab they put an incredible emphasis on serenity and the serenity prayer I try to remember the serenity prayer when I'm going through a particular stressful time or when I'm just frustrated or irritated and it helps me calm down. I also think that the latin language is a beautiful language.

I'm thinking about resigning from my job at the end of May. This is a big decision for me because I've never been one to just quit or deny responsibilities just because I didn't want to do them, although I dread going to work I do it because I know I need to and that it will build responsibility. I know when you get older you have more responsibilities but I think being a high school student is very hard. It seems like every day I get out of school, go to work, and by the time I get home at 10:30 I'm too tired to do any homework and I literally just get in bed and fall right to sleep. Then on the weekends I work every day. Sure I have about two days ooff work every week but I consider those my catch up days where I mostly catch up on sleep and as much as I hate to admit it I hardly ever do my homework. I know I should put school before all of that other stuff but on my days off I really don't want to sit inside and do homework, especially now that it's starting to get sunny and warm I want to go out with my friends, play with my dogs, if not that I want to sleep not do homework. I really dread going to work when I open on saturdays because it seems like Saturday is my one day to really sleep in and when I have to be at work at 8 it's not even sleeping in at all. At least when you're older you have a job and can go home and relax afterward. Now that it's getting toward the end of the year and we have prom, graduation practices, graduation itself and I will be moving almost as soon as I graduate so I'm worried I won't have enough time to spend with friends before I leave. the people that I've talked to at work (which are the only reason I haven't left already because I love the people I work with) they all say that they have gotten days off for graduation etc with no problem but they couldn't go out afterward because they had to work early the next morning. I'm afraid to quit though because I'm afraid I'll need the money but is missing out on your senior year worth it?

My friend had to get one of her wisdom teeth cut out today and she had to get put to sleep etc because now that's considered "major" surgery. I'm going to go see her after school and I started wondering because I've never had surgery before. i wonder if when you get the ansethesia and you go to sleep if you dream because you are asleep but it is a medicated sleep and meant to make you to where you don't move etc so I wonder if you dream. I asked someone who had surgery and he said he didn't dream but even when you sleep normally you don't always remember it or know you do. So I think it would be interesting to actually know if someone does. I'm sure if you ask a doctor they would know but since I don't think I will be having any surgeries in the near future or talking to any anethesiologist for now I'll just wonder.

I'm really nervous to live in the dorms at Purdue. I don't know anyone going there so I will have to get a random roommate, even though I know this happens all the time and it can't really be that bad, there are stories of people who's random roommates have ended up being their best friends but I'm still scared about it because there are also those stories about horror roommates. Also, in a way I kind of want my roommate to be a sophomore that way they're not much older than me but they are a little bit and that way they've been there for a year and know whats going on. I think I have an ok personality and I will be able to get along with pretty much anyone I just hope they're nice and helpful. The roommate isn't my biggest fear though it's the entire situation, the not knowing is what gets me. I know I won't be the only one experiencing this as all the freshmen will be clueless but that doesn't make me feel any better, just means we'll all be ignorant. Plus the Purdue campus is huge and most of the dorms are a little ways away from the classes and lecture halls. But I know all of these are normal freshman jitters, I'm also really excited to meet new people. I go on April 5th to look at the different dorms etc I can't wait!

thaw

I've noticed that a lot of people say "unthaw" when really "unthawing" something would be freezing it. thawing something is to un-freeze it. The prefix "un" is to undo something well, if thaw is to un-freeze it wouldn't unthaw be to freeze it? So why on things like frozen dinners and receipes etc. does it say unthaw? It's so common now most people do say this and I guess I have too much time on my hands to actually be thinking about it but most people do say this. Even though I've thought about it I still find myself saying it. So now when you want to unfreeze something you can be sure to say "thaw" instead of "unthaw"

Prom!

I found the perfect dress! I went to a place in Louisville called Rebecca's Boutique and saw a picture of a dress that I loved and they didn't have it btu they said I could try on one exactly like it but a different material and different design on top so I did and it fit absolutely perfectly, it was just too long which duh it would be, i'm 5'3. Anyway, it was sooo beautiful, I was there with Dana and I called my mom and told her she had to come look so I stood there in the dress in the mirror so my mom comes in and sees it and starts talking to the lady about buying the one in the picture that I loved and ordered it right then i was so surprised and excited. The lady even said "I've been doing this for a long time and I've never seen someone as excited as you."



here is a picture of the one i tried on:

http://www.flirtprom.com/dress.aspx?style=P1409

Here is the one I actually bought:

http://www.flirtprom.com/dress.aspx?style=P1412

and my shoes!!!!

http://www.famousfootwear.com/ProductImages/shoes_ia75685.jpg

Who's idea was it to make the high school and kctcs spring break schedule different? I don't understand why Daviess County can't plan their breakings to coinicide with the community college. Many students participate in classes at both schools so it would make much more sense to me if Daviess County would plan their breaks to be the same as OCC. If a student that happens to have classes at OCC and a Daviess County school can almost not take a vacation. They must either miss their high school classes or their college classes. What if a student particates in something like baseball? Our Apollo baseball players go to Cocoa Beach, FL every year for spring break so they would have to miss their college classes, the Daviess County spring breaks sometimes fall near the end of the semester and near finals for the OCC classes and it can be very detrimental to miss classes that late as very important things could be going on but they have to go on the trip for baseball.

At Megan's house last night we were talking to her parents about the house that they used to live in and the woman that sold it to them sold it because she was convinced it was haunted. so I'm wondering if you believe in ghosts? Some of the stories her parents told were pretty unbelieveable and creepy to say the least. For example when she was a baby and her father was asleep he woke up and saw a woman that said "hey the baby is crying" he just assumed it was his wife, Marla and got up and took care of the baby got it to stop crying and came back to bed and realized Marla was still in bed and hadn't moved and he thought back to when he saw the woman he remembered Marla was right next to him. Also Marla had many "premontions" that ended up coming true that she had dreamed about in that house.

birthday

Well yesterday was my birthday and nothing exciting happened but it was probably one of the best birthdays ever. Dana came to my house and woke me up with a disney princess present bag and my favorite perfume, a disney princess activity book that I kept telling her I loved and my favorite energy drink. then she took me out to breakfast and we went over to megan's house to eat the ice cream cake Megan bought for me. I cannot watch scary movies even though I like them because I get too scared and I had always wanted to see "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" so we watched that and it was scary but we watched it in the middle of the day so I thought it would be ok. Well then I lay down to go to bed and the lights are off and I had to call megan ebcasue I was too afraid to not talk to anyone because my mind started to think about the movie. I was too afraid to hang up the phone with megan so we stayed up til 5:30 and I finally fell asleep on the phone with her.

Purdue

It was always ht eplan for me to jus tmove to Louisville and live with my mom when i graduated and go to the University Of Louisville which I was soooo excited to do. Well, it's amazing how quickly all of one's plans can change. An amazing job opportunity presented itself to my mom and we will be moving to West Lafayette, Indiana when I graduate and I will go to Purdue University. At first I was so upset because I am not a person that takes change well, it always throws me off and I never know how to adjust. This was exactly what happened when my mom told me about possibly moving. she told me that because I was really the only person in the family that cared so much about moving I could help make most of the decision and because it was such a great opportunity and so much more money that I couldn't say no. So on thursday I went on a college visit to Purdue University and even though the campus is freaking huge I am so excited to go. It's a great school and we are looking at house very similar to the one we have in Louisville which is great because that was one of hte main reasons I didn't want to go, I love my mom's house in Louisville it's beautiful and I'm absolutely in love with it. Also the building is beautiful and they are looking in longevity with the person the hire for the position so there isn't any risk of losing the job after getting hired and everything is falling into place. Although I hate the thought of leaving Kentucky and Louisville and I am uncharacteristically excited to move and go to Purdue... even if you can't spell "boilermakers" into a cheer like you can the Cards

snow

I don't know exactly how I feel about snow, obviously waking up and finding out you get to go back to sleep is a great feeling but as a senior I don't want to graduate in June. I don't mind late May because we already get out in late May but I do not want to get out in June again. I'm not one of those people that keeps track of when we get out of school for summer. But i do know that these fake possible snow days are killer! Although I kept telling everyone don't get too excited because we're not going to get out tomorrow. Meterology is the only career where you can be wrong all the time and not in get in trouble for it. I don't even understand why every other county around us is out surely the snow didn't just fall everywhere but daviess county

trademarks

Everyone has little trademarks and hearing what some of my friends wrote apparently I have trademarks that I don't even notice like constantly flipping my hair and rolling my eyes, but others I am well aware. I think my biggest trademark that people notice about me immediately after meeting me is my laugh. I have a very loud unique laugh I've heard it can be annoying and I've heard people say hearing my laugh makes them laugh. I laugh and smile all the time often for little things or before I can even get to the point of whatever I'm talking about. I don't mind these different things because they make me me and if I have a trademark I would much rather it be laughter and smiling than anything else.

Usually I don't like when other people do covers for popular songs they just don't ever seem as good as the original but there are a couple that I like such as Kelly Clarkson's "Cryin'" originally done by Aerosmith. Everyone knows Steven tyler screams as opposed to singing and I find it incredible that anyone else could sing it but listening to Kelly Clarkson's version it is incredible how she could sing it and it still sound good. She has such a huge voice coming out of such a little body, although I think many times the contestants/winners from American Idol can be cheesy her voice is incredible she has a great range and a strong voice. Not only do I think her version of "Cryin'" is good I almost like it better than the original by Aerosmith. I'll let you judge for yourself though!


www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGgsdm4Pwx8

superstitions

I don't konw if I necessarily believe in superstitions but I don't like to test them out. Such as the Macbeth curse, all of the unfortunate events tha thave happened are strange coinicidences so they seem suspicious but who's to say if they're just coinicidences or not? Even though they could be true or could not be true I don't go out of my way to avoid "bad luck" nor to I encourage it. I have noticed tha tpeople who believe in supertitions the most are athletes. My family is a hockey family and my little brother is the goalie and it is a rule that if the game is going well one DOES NOT say the word "shut out" until the game is completely over because they all believe that if someone says it during the game the shut out will go out the window. Also I think every single player on the team has a lucky something that they always wear, if my brother eats a certain thing and then plays a great game he will insist on having that particular food before every game. I believe in things like spirits, ghosts, and maybe even psychics and mediums because how can you ever know for sure if it's fake or not? Sure it may sound ridiculous but what proof is out there to contradict or agree with these things to have a concerte answer? That's why it's called the unknown.